[FF7 Game canon] Apropos of Nothing
Rating: PG-13 - Status: One-shot, complete - Warnings: Chara death, if you don't believe in happy endings
Characters: Rufus/Reno
Timeline: In-game

Summary: Sometimes, things just don't work out.

For wannabeking.

A/N: Was looking for a different manuscript (Turtledoves, actually, That Abyss Fic), when I came across this instead. I started it about a year back or half a year, couldn't seem to write the second half of it, and abandoned it for later. Later was apparently today, where I slapped together something and decided, ah hell, let's just post this (even if it's not very good) or it'll languish forever on my harddisk. Sadly, work has mangled my brains severely over the last month or so, so I have no idea what I just wrote, let alone whether it works.

( Full of sound and fury, signifying nothing )

Arggh, it is beginning to be crunch time. I should have been a smart cookie from the beginning, studying for the GRE and filling out my applications. I can do all those things (and the GRE score can be deferred, just as long as I take the test before January)...

What has always brought me short was the dreaded recommendations. For the first year that I came back from Japan, I feared having to contact my Japanese teachers/friends because I was so sure that they didn't like my performance at school. I don't think I showed the proper gratitude (gift-giving) for their help in the last year as I was leaving... :(

I feel so awful even thinking about asking them for help. It's like they have no more obligation to write me a recommendation or anything about my teaching.

And granted, teaching ESL to adults is a different field than teaching to kids. (I don't feel any need to teach children anymore. Seriously, I would be much happier if I don't.) The fear is paralyzing me and I shouldn't be paralyzed. I've got one very happy recommendation coming from the instructor at Shoreline CC. I just need to take that last step and ask my Japanese friends.

(This is excluding the money I still have to find via the FAFSA. OH GOD I HATE BEING DISORGANIZED.)

EDIT: Got an email back from the job. I didn't get it. :(